why farewell is so painfull ??

well this time the lights are up. the dark is outside.. try to collect myself and trying  to stop thinking about you... 
Tomorrow? i know it's your birthday but i don't have such great chance to wish you A very happy birthday day . i cant see in your eyes cant hold your hand and completely blank about that magnificent smile which i once used to live with.

i m gathering that memories , holding my breath . try to stop thinking about you but this lame mind is still outta my control. this bloody heart wont allowing me to say A goodbye. but i cant control time  as i've tried to control it but i just went like a quick bate and keep watching it..

so today i just wanna close my eyes again and recall the best of yours and (please god give me strength ) saying you a good bye.. and yeah Happy Birthday too..

its very difficult to say you goodbye too.. :( 

.ILLUSION OF CONTINUITY.

continuity.. a word that everyone of us like a lot .. it's basic blend of smoothness so exquisite by nature.. but in real it the something which holds you back.. which bounds you ..

when you are pursuing you life you"ll be glad to know that your life is going very smooth in a very continuous way but this continuity make you the real monotonous creature on this world. excluding the natural things like water and air there is nothing can be so continuous not even ones' thought ..


so lets go deep inside this thing .. and try to know when things became continuous ,'when they don't have any external or internal forces to harsh their inertia. so when ever you are going smooth in life it means you are getting passive. you are not allowing yourself to break this monotonous chain . you are simply going with the flow of life , by the influences of people and that we call -A DANGER ZONE.


So you must try to stop this continuity to bring back yourself . to the real who you are.
such that you can be defined by your uniqueness not by a species.


smiles :)